http://vision4sale.livejournal.com/ vision4sale - LiveJournal.com Sun, 19 Dec 2004 04:45:10 GMT LiveJournal / LiveJournal.com vision4sale 5358858 personal http://vision4sale.livejournal.com/951.html Sun, 19 Dec 2004 04:45:10 GMT http://vision4sale.livejournal.com/951.html Shit! I must have the worst karma or something, cuz everything in my life is going wrong. I need to have surgery, the IRS is after me for back taxes, a collection agency is hounding me for 30,000, and on top of that I've got a drug problem. To make things worse, I,ve become a social outcast, no one even wants to know me anymore. If only something good would happen for me, for a change, I really need something, but the rain just pours. I feel so bad, now, I could barely swallow my own spit. http://vision4sale.livejournal.com/951.html public 0 http://vision4sale.livejournal.com/660.html Tue, 07 Dec 2004 07:29:27 GMT http://vision4sale.livejournal.com/660.html One of those days. Angry at the whole world or something, but still in check, because I didn't blow-up at anybody. I know that when I get mad at the world, I am really just mad at myself. However, sometimes, it really is other people who "piss-you-off", and deserve to be "yelled at" - especially when they are your family. One thing I know that will never change in people, no matter how old, mature, or whatever they are in life, is that people will always be petty about what makes them appear even the slightest, bit "not-as-good". Myself included, but some people are much worse at dealing with being "dissed", whether or not it was intentional or unintentional. I wish people would be more understanding of problems they create by being petty. The worse offenders are the "jealous-types". They are like "Ninja assassins", with their back stabbing, and stealthy battle tricks. They can come from anywhere, and cause undeserved harm, all because they are resentful of you. These people deserve their own worse punishment for their harmful, actions to others - I can't stand them. I wish there was a way to deal with jealous people, other than making yourself look bad, so they will like you more or something. I tried being cool, but I can feel their caustic, resentment. http://vision4sale.livejournal.com/660.html public 0 http://vision4sale.livejournal.com/487.html Sun, 05 Dec 2004 05:49:44 GMT http://vision4sale.livejournal.com/487.html Never did a journal before, and seems really cool, so I wonder how this will turn out. Everyone else's journal look way more interesting than anything I'll ever write, but I guess that doesn't matter here. I'm just another frustrated filmmaker, doomed for life, unless I get off my ass and do something about it, instead of just dreaming about making a film. I try to read how other directors got started, and there is no formula, everyone was different, so that didn't help much. Although, the established directors never mention it, they all got a break from someone they knew, and many come from wealthy families, so it doesn't seem fair to a guy from the outside. Regardless, there's got to be a way, and I've got to keep telling myself that in order to keep a positive attitude - less I give-up. http://vision4sale.livejournal.com/487.html public 0